Anyone Have A Bridge For Me To Jump Off Of?

Because I need one at this time. This year has been nuts. So here is this week's rotten drama: My Mike witnessed a death. He was at work Monday and one of his fellow electricians was accidentally killed on the job. My poor sweet baby saw the whole accident happen and was the first one to get to the guy but it was too late, the accident was just too bad. So, needlessly to say, he has been a mess the whole week. And sick. He got sick on Sunday but I guess the shock really sent his immune system for a loop because on Monday he just got sicker. He continued to get sicker by the day and finally today, after a 30 minute coughing fit, he decided to go to the ER. Pneumonia. Oh Yeah. Now he is upstairs trying to go to sleep but can't stop hacking.

Then my sisters horse kicked her chihuahua and killed it. WITF!

Can I just fly away to some sunny place that is full of drinks with umbrella, clear blue water and tons of sunblock? Just for a week? The Bermuda triangle?

But I have come to some conclusions about human life due to the events of the past month. First of all humans are like bugs, they can get squished very easily and croak. Life is so fragile, it can get snuffed out so quickly and there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it but accept it and move on with my own life. Maybe that sounds cold or unrealistic but the more I think about it the more I realize just how I have to be another animal in the world of animals. Animals don't freak out and lose their minds when another fellow animal dies, they just keep foraging for food, a safe place to sleep, defending the young and procreating. So that is what I am going to do, just keep moving, trying to produce my work and make some money in the process. I;m going to keep living my life but I will always cherish all of my memories of those who have passed and be thankful and grateful for the things they have given me, may it be physical or otherwise. Who knows, maybe this is my own way of reasoning my way through the grieving process, I'm not sure, but at this exact moment this is how I feel about death.

All of that said I have been making the silhouettes and I really like how they are coming out. Cutting paper makes me feel better. I like the process of drawing the design on the paper and then cutting it out without messing it up and then trying to adhere it with out destroying the whole thing. Here are a few:

This first detail is of a fish that I cut from "music" paper. It makes me wish I had real music paper to destroy!

So there are just a few to give you all an idea of how hey are coming out. I have two listed on etsy and plan to keep going. Even though there seems to be a black cloud following us around I am still more motivated and driven to make stuff than I have in a long time. My creativity is preserving my sanity and gives me a reason to make goals. I know that I am in trouble when I;m not making goals and since I am and keep making them I must be okay. However, i think I need some voodoo majic in this house. I need to get it smudged or blessed or something. hings have got to get better from here. Wish me luck and please visit my etsy site to see all of the silhouettes as I add them! www.TilleyVoegtleArt.etsy.com

Best wishes to all!